Tuesday, November 30, 2004


I feel utterly directionless.

I have plenty. I'm at where I should be in life. I'm a good person. I'm smart, kinda cute and occasionally fun to be around. I love my family. I have wonderful friends. I work hard. I get out now and again, though I'm insanely boring. I don't do drugs (anymore). Sometimes it's all so painfully normal...

I really miss doing work that matters. Once someone stopped me on the steps of Sproul at Berkeley and thanked me for creating Hardboiled. It didn't quite mean anything then 'cause the magazine was something that was just inside of me. Something that mattered so much I had to act.

I need to find that fire again.

Wednesday, November 17, 2004


Here's to Americans who stand up to fight for issues that they care about. It could be me and it could be you, but most likely it's not... So, here's props to Asian Americans and Hispanic Americans who took Abercrombie & Fitch to court over their discrimatory hiring and advancement policies favoring whites. The class-action lawsuit awarded $40 million to Asian American and Hispanic American employee and job applicants.

Many of us talk about issues that we care about, injustices that need to be addressed, but others hear a clarion call to action and responsibility. Seize the opportunity to create change...

Tuesday, November 16, 2004


The last week, I've had the immense pleasure and joy of attending the WTA Year-End Championships at the Staples Center in Los Angeles, featuring the top 8 players in women's tennis, including big-name babes such as Maria Sharapova, Serena Williams and Lindsay Davenport.

I was having orgasms all week. I was in Tickemaster suite the first night. And on the second night, I was in the 10th row and watched as Maria Sharapova beat Svetlana Kuznetsova for the first time ever in straight sets! It was daring and spectacular tennis. I had to watch the next two nights on ESPN, but for the semi-finals, I had front row seats and watched as Sharapova outlasted Anastasia Myskins for the very first time! What a victory, beating two players she had losing records against! On Finals Monday, I watched as 17-year-old Sharapova beat Serena Williams to win the Championships! Maria played marvelous tennis all week and it was so much fun to watch live! I'm thinking next year I should pay for it. And you should too...

But what was also kinda fun was that I ran into Tracy Scoggins! That's right, Monica Colby from Dynasty and The Colbys (and Babylon 5). I loved Dynasty. You should see the pic, we look so cute together.

Maria Sharapova