Tuesday, April 12, 2005

THERE ARE JUST SOME THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND...

I guess I still don't understand it. It's the emotion part of me that won't ever get it. I've realized that just this moment...

I'm on AIM with a friend and we're talking about children. Somehow it leads into her dealing with issues from her past - of not feeling loved, of the chaos of childhood. And then I realize I'm not over what I had seemingly closed off years ago when I stopped talking to my father. I'm not over my childhood.

I chose to cut him off as not to deal with the pain. But now I've realized that if we never talk about it, they pain will always be there. It still lives inside of me.